I know it’s pretty self-centered, and very passive of me to just be waiting, but all I want…the only thing I truly want at this moment is a sign. Some sign that all this pain, all these tears, everything I’ve fought against and crumbled under for the past 9 months is for something. Some sign that there’s a bigger plan in motion, that I’m at least headed somewhere. 

Because if there isn’t…if I’m not…what’s the use in fighting anymore?